Dear Jordan.

Dear Jordan,

Trust me when I say I had a hard time writing about you cause you are just that secretive about yourself. The first thing that comes to my mind when I think of you is Blurness. Then, your emotionless face when something is going on. You'll have a straight face and it's like you don't care. "Yea? What? AH? Huh? What?" That's what you say when I have to call your name halfway during our conversations because you always get lost in your thoughts. It makes me wonder what is going on in that head of yours. It's like you're there and you're not there at the same time. You're really quiet when you're in a new environment or when you're not comfortable with someone but you show your weird side, like really extremely weird side to the ones you're super comfortable with. How weird are you? You kinda killed your tortoise and threw your cat and acted like nothing happen and also told us about it as if it was a funny story. You would repeat the same thing we said cause you were not paying attention. You would scream in high pitch out of nowhere and slap yourself when your thoughts go haywire and still say "Yea, I'm fine" when you're not. You like watching bloody videos for fun. You know you hate the taste of prawns but you still try it over and over again saying "Maybe I will like it this time." You would take your own sweet time when you're suppose to rush and that is really frustrating at times. Because of that, you get scolding often from most of us.

Despite all this, you've never hold grudges towards anyone. You've never picked sides when an argument takes place. You find it hard to mix around or start a conversation but you would always give it a shot. You always look at things in a different way and it teaches me something new every time. You have the wisest things to say to me when I'm upset or when I'm feeling down and taught me how to embrace my insecurities whenever I share something to you. You always knew how to make a person better by knowing what to say to them. You give one of the best random hugs. Most of the time I don't like it and tell you not to try that again but those genuine hugs are just your way of showing support, comfort and love towards someone and I love that about you. You taught me that enjoying my own company can be fun as hanging out in a group. I can never understand you cause one minute you're all crazy and then the next, you start to wander in your thoughts and look at me as if I'm crazy. I'm glad you picked me to listen to you when you need someone. You'll always have a special place in my heart and thank you for teaching me that seeing things in a different perspective is never wrong.

I hope I surprised you.

Lots of love,

Charcoal. ♥