It's Just Another Birthday.

I still remember celebrating my birthday last year; I wrote down what I've learned and most of it was about not being afraid to try. I told myself that I will cope up with whatever that happens and even promised to do better. I had a list of what I wanted to do or try but things don't always turn out how you want, right? Sometimes you're just tired of everything and nothing motivates you. You just do your everyday things because that's what you're suppose to do. You feel like you have no direction and wonder "Is this how it's gonna be?" . I was definitely not myself, fake smiling and laughing everywhere I went. I was just tired everyday. I've neglected my blog cause I just didn't feel like doing it. I just didn't want to do anything, even make new friends.

After months, I logged in my blog and read my previous posts and I'm glad I did it. It felt like I wrote it just for me. Reading it was like a reminder to me that these things happens to everyone, it is always about how strong your willpower is to cope with it. I've always loved making friends and having people around me, but now I like having a small circle around me. Overall, it was not a very productive year, everything just felt off but I'm grateful for having a very supportive family that makes me laugh till my stomach hurts especially Sherina. I'm glad I have her to listen to my rants and my thoughts whenever I needed someone to talk. Every little moment of laughter makes me forget things.

This year, it was the little things that mattered. Bought a cake (I always get excited for a butter cake from Berry's), had a small dinner with my family and it was definitely a meaningful birthday I've had in years. As a family, we don't spend time together often and we rarely see a complete family on weekdays. Therefore, I'm grateful that we got to spend our time together every chance we have. Happy 22nd Shar! You'll do better ♥

P/S: Here's the link to the blog I was talking about, Hope it helps you too! :) https://sharvinar.wixsite.com/website/blog/another-year-down